Tuesday, May 26, 2015

Discovering the Hidden

It was dreary on Friday morning. The rain came down steadily, the sky a dull gray and the mountains clouded in a foggy mist. I had finished my breakfast and was relishing in the knowledge that I was pretty well disconnected from the world. No internet. No cell phone service. An old school landline connected to a cordless phone was my only lifeline, shall we say. In case of emergencies only.

It was so quiet. Only the gentle pitter patter of rain on the roof and the quiet whir of the dehumidifier left running by the retired couple whose house I was staying in for the next several days. Good family friends of my parents, I had stayed in their home in October of 2013 when I completed my yoga teacher training at an ashram only 20 minutes away. Currently, they were off traveling and had graciously opened up their home to me and, in exchange, I would water their plants and feed their friendly black and white cat, Sam. I had come back to the mountains, just north of Boulder, a year and a half later for some solitude and rest. A personal retreat of sorts to relax and restore my body, mind, and soul. It almost seemed as if the Universe had sent the mist to wrap me up in a cozy embrace while also serving as my invisibility cloak to hide me temporarily from the outside world.

With intentions to visit the ashram that morning and take a yoga class, I drove down the potholed dirt road until I reached Highway 72. Convinced I had the simple route to the ashram memorized after having driven it every morning and every night for the 21 days of my yoga training, I didn't bother powering up my GPS. I turned right.

It didn't take more than fifteen minutes to realize my mistake. Along with that realization came the sinking knowledge that I would not be making it to 10:00AM yoga on time. So instead, I just kept on driving. Surely there must have been a reason I found myself cruising through a valley on the opposite side of the mountain.

Initially hoping that the curvy mountain road would loop around and bring me back towards home (despite an extended detour), I soon began to worry that it was much more likely that I was just simply driving farther and farther away. So, I turned 'round and started back the way I had come.

Within minutes, I passed a dark brown blob on my right, hardly noticeable through my rain streaked passenger side window. I slowed and rolled down my window. A moose. Elegant, powerful, and uninterested, I watched the moose munch away on a roadside bush, it's brownish black fur dark and wet, as though it had idly smeared greasy pomade over it's entire body before heading out for work in it's natural, woodsy office.



I smiled and lifted my gaze to the overcast sky. So, this was the purpose behind my unexpected detour. High-five, God. Well played.

Before my moose sighting, I had passed through the unassuming town of Ward. A small community tucked in the mountains, a quick blink and I might have easily missed it. But, as I retraced my route, driving back through the village, I looked a bit more closely.

The town seemed disheveled and almost forgotten – a haphazard giant's playground with a child's discarded toys left to rust and rot in the muddied earth. There were banged up trucks and numerous junked automobiles parked on the side of the road, their wheels sinking slowly into the softened ground. Well intentioned owners surely meaning to fix them up “some day” but now instead, they sat as permanent fixtures in the town's landscape. I noticed a bent and scraped sign pointing to the library and post office. Paint peeled off the sides of the houses and a few windows were cracked or some smashed straight through entirely. Had it not been for the “OPEN” sign on the village's general store window and tendrils of gray smoke coming up through a few roof tops, I would have assumed the whole town asleep or uninhibited. Or abducted, as one particularly humorous road sign seemed to indicate.



The bell tinkled as I entered the store. “No Photo's Please” a door sign stated upon entry. I was greeted warmly by the older gentleman vacuuming the floor who, at the same time, furrowed his brow at the sight of my camera. I introduced myself and smiled, assuring him that I would respect his sign and take no pictures. He seemed to relax then and his tone reflected his appreciation. His eyes crinkled at the corners, his skin tough and leathered from the elements. There was dirt under his tidily trimmed fingernails and his hair held hints of silver. His name was Frank.

Curious about this village, I started asking questions. This little town of Ward had only about 150 inhabitants today. “Used to be over 3,000 in the 1930's,” he told me, before the gold ran out. “Normally, the town is bustling with cyclists, especially on the weekends. There's usually at least ten bikes parked outside the store with over 100 coming through on Saturdays and Sundays. Tourists visit a lot too. My wife Mindy and I, we've owned this store for eleven years. She make's felt hats. She's sold over 1,000 since I've known her.” He brought me then, to the back of the small shop where there were several of her felt creations on display– hats, purses, scarves. Beautiful works of art, the colorful fiber had been pounded flat and expertly shaped.

“Do you have a business card?” I asked. Frank handed me one. “We don't have a phone number. No email either,” he stated matter-of-factly, but with a hint of pride. “We don't like the internet or cell phones. It's especially nice when the electricity goes out at home. It's so peaceful and quiet. The worst thing about coming to this store is to hear the sound of the refrigerator. I hate it. Believe it or not, only a few people here in town have running water toilets. I think we're up to fifteen total now.”

I was delighted in conversation with Frank. Soon, his wife Mindy arrived wearing one of her original felt hat designs. Frank swelled visibly with love and pride when she entered the store. They had been married for 20 years, she said. “Picked him up hitch hiking down the mountain one day,” she grinned. “But, it wasn't until a couple years later that we reconnected and got together. He showed up with a pile of laundry at my house one day and just never left!”

They both chuckled, and I felt warmed by their tenderness towards each other and comfortable ease at which she teased him. Frank suggested I visit the library before I leave. An interesting place, he said, that most people don't really know about as it's hidden in the back room of the old school house turned post office. It's always open. “And, just across the street there,” he gestured at an old blue and rusted truck next to a heaping junk pile with an artistic flair, “is one of the most photographed places on earth. And old hippy used to run his art studio out of that truck. He and anyone who chose to stop by would sit outside in the backyard on old couches and smoke weed,” he recalled fondly. “The old man died a few years ago. But, no one has ever cleaned up the spot. The whole town loved him. You know, some things are just better left unchanged.”

I thanked him and his wife and went on my way, a light, misting rain greeting me as I exited the store. The mound of stuff across the street intrigued me. Metal bed frames, rusted hub caps, mismatched shoes, and several sets of downhill skis were jumbled and tangled and twisted up into an intentional and yet, bizarre pile – creativity gone haywire and influenced by who-knows-what substances. Now it stood, a memorial for a man well-loved by the town of Ward.





I hiked the short distance up the road to the old school house with it's bell still housed in the roof top tower. I wandered to the back of the building and entered a glassed sunroom, light streaking in through the dirtied windows. There were books piled on a chair and on the window sills. I pushed open the next door, and there it was - the Ward Public Library. It was only one room, with a loft that could be reached by climbing the spiraled, hand-carved, dark wood staircase. Footprints and paw-prints marked the dusty floors. Old “Highlights” magazines lay scattered on the ground and piles of books, old records, and curled maps had been stacked on tables, desks, chairs, and bookshelves. The room smelled of must and dust – leather bound books with their yellowed pages strewn about the room in complete disorder. I couldn't be tempted to touch or rearrange a thing. It was perfect.








I had felt as if I had been told a secret. I delighted in this hidden, peaceful place. Yes, a hidden library in a hidden mountain village, who's inhabitants hid quietly inside their homes – private and undisturbed. I tiptoed away, not wishing to unsettle a thing in this mystical and odd little village.


I had thought it was a moose that was the reason for my mis-turn. How wonderful to discover all the other hidden treasures the Colorado mountains had in store for me on that drippy, wet, Friday morning.

Sunday, May 24, 2015

Be Fucking Brave

I'll be honest. I'm scared a lot. In my minimal preparation for this road trip west, I noticed often that my mind would be consumed by a whole swarm of fears that, in reality, would most likely never happen. Like, being stranded with a flat tire in the middle of nowhere Nebraska. Possible, but just not likely. This mind madness happens to me all the time. And, if I were to listen to those fears intently, nodding my head in agreement that, yes, I absolutely could get mugged by an unruly band of highway pirates while filling my tank at a lonely gas station, there is no way I would have packed up my car and began the 14+ hour drive west to Colorado. No freaking way. But, thankfully, I've learned how to train my body and my brain to quiet those chilling thoughts, take a deep breath and go, “Hey Fear – you are simply not serving me in this moment. Hush now. Let's be on our way.”

And so, I went.

As one who pretty much despises the idea of paying for a hotel, I had rigged up the passenger side of my little red 1998 VW Beetle into a flat, albeit slightly cramped, sleeping area. Perfect for power naps along the way too, as needed. I stopped at Target to buy a GPS (a MUST for any road tripper) and plugged in Boulder, CO. 14 hours and 38 minutes of drive time until I arrived at my final destination. Another must for road tripping? An audio book. That morning, I had downloaded “The Memory Keeper's Daughter,” a novel I had had on my bookshelf for years but hadn't yet read. Within the first half hour, the story had me hooked, and I barely seemed to notice my surroundings as I rocketed (at a very normal, safe and legal speed...) down the seemingly endless stretch of highway. It was only at sunset, while I was catching up with a friend on the phone, that my eyes took time to drink in the beauty of the Iowa landscape. Rolling green hills, giant wind energy turbines circling steadily clockwise, and the clouds in the sky lighting up like a fiery orange, fluffy flame as though set fire by the receding sun.

I made it all the way to Omaha, NE. My friend hooked me up with her sister last minute, so I actually had a bed to sleep in before I set off again, refreshed, the following morning. I drove a couple hours before stopping at a rest stop to stretch and use the facilities. It was a beautiful morning, still a little cool from the night, but warming up quickly. I pulled my yoga mat from my back seat and found a grassy spot to do a short yoga flow. I had been severely neglecting my yoga practice in the last month, and my muscles felt tight and pinched. Within minutes, I felt better; loose and more open. I still had about seven hours to go; my audio book still had me completely captivated.


I reached Boulder, CO around 6:30PM. Just in time to meet up with a friend for dinner. It had been since November of 2013 when I was last in Boulder, and I found comfort in the hustle and bustle of the Pearl St Mall on this unusually cool Thursday evening. I had arrived. Safe and without incident.

I shudder to think of all the missed experiences I would have if I chose to play captive to my irrational fears. It's not always easy to live courageously, but for me, it's totally worth it. I don't always have my next step planned out. I often live with much of my life and my future unknown. But, I know I am guided in my steps. I trust in the Flow of my life and that I am led to certain places and introduced to certain people for a reason. The power is in the choices that we make each day and the way in which we choose to live our life. And, I choose to live through the fear.


Be fucking brave, my friends. Be fucking brave.

Wednesday, May 20, 2015

Live the Life

While perusing through an antique and craft shop in Stanley, WI last week (such a GEM of a store!), I came across an old Remington Rand Deluxe Model typewriter. When I saw the price tag ($25.00!!), I hardly hesitated.

“I'm a writer,” I thought. “I need this.”



At the cash register, I struck up a conversation with the women behind the counter. She estimated the typewriter was from the 1920's. It was in great condition. The black and red ribbon was frayed slightly in the middle but still punched thick, bold letters onto the crinkled white piece of paper. Some of the keys stuck. The metal joints and hinges ached for a thorough dusting.



“Ten years ago, you couldn't give a typewriter away!” she exclaimed. “I've thrown hundreds away over the years. This one though, yeah. This one's in good shape.” A Stanley native, Jean worked at the local prison for her “day job” and antiqued on the weekends for the love of it.

“So, you're a writer?” she questioned aloud after asking me what I do. “Boy, if you ever want stories, I gotta lotta stories. Always thought I should write a book about 'em. Gimme a call sometime, honey. Yeah, I got a lotta stories for ya.”

I grinned. This isn't work. This is pure pleasure.

Today, I set out on my road trip west to Colorado. I only saw it fitting to embark on this new adventure with the above quote by the celebrated writer, Henry David Thoreau.


And just look at those keys! Isn't it a beauty?


Monday, May 18, 2015

In Search of Everything Beautiful

You know what's crazy?

What's crazy is when things that are seemingly separate in your life merge together and all of a sudden you have this realization that everything in your life is, in fact, completely and totally connected.

Allow me share a short and serendipitous story with you.



As many of you know, for the past two months, I have played the character "Jo" in "Little Women." (A large reason why my blog went into temporary hibernation.) Jo is a spunky teenager, full of adventure, fiercely independent, and an aspiring writer. During one of the most powerful and emotional scenes in the play, Jo's younger sister Beth says, "I never saw myself as anything much, not a great writer like you." To which Jo responds, "Oh Beth, I am not a great writer..."

"But you will be,” Beth replies.

Rewind to May 5th when my first published story became available in bookstores all over the world. How do I know it's all over the world? Because, this weekend, I received an email from a gentleman in Saudi Arabia.

He wrote:

"Hello Ms. Anna,

I hope you are doing well. I'm not sure whether or not you are the same Anna Lucas who wrote the wonderful story "Just Me," from a recently published book by the Chicken Soup for the Soul series, Time to Thrive. The story, however, touched my heart and soothed my soul in a very positive way...You are a very talented writer and your writing style is beautiful beyond the words can ever describe...You deserve more than to be called a great writer."

My jaw dropped.

You know, sometimes, you have this vision of what you want your life to be. You have hopes and dreams, fears and fidgets – without really knowing why or how to explain them. All I can say is that right now, I am on a quest, in search of everything beautiful in this world. I intend to share this beauty with you, through writing my travel stories, sharing insights, and showcasing my photography. I invite you to join me in your own search of what you find beautiful in this world. And, let us see what wonderful things come of it.


But you will be,” she said.

Photo Credit: Anna Lucas
"Vision Board - 2015"